Author: Josh Warren
If anyone knows me or sees how I am on an almost daily basis, they will know that I am usually stressed or nervous about something going on in my life. What I am nervous about is usually something music-related. I get nervous for voice lessons, for aural skills exams, for piano-playing tests, for presentations--I especially get nervous for juries. I have realized since coming to college that I get so nervous because I am afraid of failing, afraid of letting people down, especially myself. I hate feeling like a failure, like I have messed up somehow. A lot of people know that I am a perfectionist and everything I do has to be correct one way or another; there are no excuses.
Over the past two years, since I've been at Clarion, I have gotten some great advice on how to not be so nervous about things. I have learned that if I practice as much as I can and do the work required of me, I will go into these lessons, exams, playing test--whatever the event may be--and simply blow the professor away with my abilities. As long as I am confident in what I am doing, I will have nothing to worry about. I have also learned that while it is good to have such high standards for yourself as I do, it can also eat away at you eventually. It can get kind of "dangerous" to continue to push yourself to the limit, such as pulling "all-nighters" for almost an entire week as I recently did. I have learned from this mistake and will not make the same mistake again. Sometimes we just have to take a step back and not raise the stakes so high.
I know that while I continue my college career at Clarion University, I will keep learning about myself and the things that will make me more successful. I wish the same thing for everyone else in this music department, and anyone else in another school's music department. Success will come to those who take the right steps along the way.